Dreams, Darkness, Small Computers and ongoing projects

It's been a strange time of late. I've found myself dreaming of another future. One that doesn't include my current family unit. Can I really remove myself from all this without huge pain and suffering for all. And all in the name of my happiness? Who knows! What I do know is how shocked so many people would be if I split from my wife. Her family, my family, her friends, my friends, our friends. But when all is said and done, I've just not been getting enough satisfaction from my life recently. And I am not sure if recently means months or years. What glimpses I have had of a potentially better future just seem elusive and intangible. So much to undo. Maybe I am not capable of having one of those lives... Poppycock! Yep, I am right proper confused. And just to complicate things further, my work has started to piss me off a bit too. Though I do have a new possibility of further employment on the horizon. Fingers crossed.

On a lighter note I have recently become obsessed with finding a elusive Asus Eeepc to use as my secondary laptop. Yes, I really do need one. It's 200 quid and runs Skype for goodness sake! And when you're away as much as me and always lugging a laptop around, this little gem seems like the perfect antidote. Well, I have one on order, a little above the original RRP, but what the heck. Maybe this will bring me some happiness if other things can't.

I am continuing my Star Wars project, along with my Blade Runner split screen analysis. Albeit very slowly. But to be honest I find it hard to get motivated with these non profit making ventures. Maybe once they are complete I will be able to get on with the Raiders project. Something that would give me the at least some pleasure. And in the same year that Indy 4 is being released. There's something quite satisfying about that idea. Life is a roller coaster after all.